It’s not the easy thing….
It’s all that you can’t leave behind”
For some reason those particular lyrics were in my head tonight while riding. Love takes many forms and is expressed and appreciated in many ways.
My uncle passed from this life yesterday and as the generation before me starts to die I’m reminded of my current struggle with getting older and my leaving this life too. We all do.
Did my mom love enough? I know she love deeply and fiercely – even those who didn’t deserve her love. Did my uncle love enough? I really think he did.
So what does it mean to love enough – to love right?
Do I love enough? I’m trying. Trying to forgive and heal the love with a child. Trying to love Nature – a tree, a sunset, a cloud, a goldfinch, a green field, the sunshine on my face. Trying not to judge others – for me this is an act of love I struggle with. Trying just to put love into the Universe so in the end I can be satisfied I loved enough.
Love is meant to be tucked into the suitcase of our lives that we carry from start to finsh. Only love leaves such a mark that can forgive, heal, nourish. It is the only thing we should leave behind. And that’s not as easy to accomplish as it sounds. But I’m trying. Are you?
I’ve seen many beautiful places- some that have even made me cry because words could never describe them. But this place is a bend in a road I’ve been on so many times in my life there’s no way to count. It’s a place at home and it has been throughout this life’s journey for me. Since I was a little girl right up to my bike ride this morning, this view makes me smile with a peacefulness of home. My heart knows it.
A few weeks back this was a treat from Nature we got for being one of the last guests to leave a friends party. I think the reflection of the sun on the right is called a sundog? Not sure. Of course I could look it up but I don’t really care that much what it’s called. It was beautiful and a treat and I enjoyed the moment. Kind of a good reminder to always take time to enjoy where you are right this very moment. Breath it in, and then exhale, as the moment quietly leaves, knowing you took it in.